Why did i start Bloggin??

Go thru this:
2nd jan,Sunday,2005:
This is the worst thing that ever happened to me.my whole diary got deleted.that too in a mysterious way.i dint expect this to happen at all.that too in the startin of the new year.my sister says she dint do it.then who did it.my brother came the other day to check somethin.may be he opened.but why will they try to delete my diary?by mistake it got deleted.some one opened my diary on purpose n when they were tryin to read it,they accidentally pressed somethin that deleted most of the document.Not almost, it deleted everythin.

I started writin diary on sep 4th 2003 n have been writin since then.suddenly now the whole year’s memories r wiped off,that too in a single go.I just hate this.i poured so many of my emotions into it n now everythin dissappeared.My year started very very badly.Is this an indication that my whole year will be bad n very very depressin.or in a positive sense,its an indication to start a new year wipin out the old memories.But I m in no mood to take it in a positive sense.I havin been cryin for the past half an hour.I always regarded my diary as my best friend.now its no more there.I poured out all my emotions in it.In a way its not lifeless for me.its my best best frend n now,i feel like one of my closest frend died.why did this happen with me?why mee?I just hope this is the only bad thing in store for me in this year.I still hope my whole document returns back.But I know that its not at all possible.This is very very unfair god.After inter I never asked u for anythin.But now I wanna ask u for just one thing.Please bring my whole diary back.Pleaseeee.Leave it.I m too depressed ryt now.My diary where I cherished all my sweet memories is now all gone.Me leaving.Bye.

thts in short wat happened when i tried openin my diary(in my comp) to write abt the new yr celebrations on jan2,2005.....n i never bothered to have an archive or back up file for it....."jab kuch bura hota hai toh nothin can stop it from happenein"......may be the back up wud have been deleted as well......n it was somethin very emotional for me......only ppl who write diary regularly can know wat im talking abt......many ppl suggested tht i shift to blogs then.....but i wudnt have poured out al my emotions thr....so kept postponin it....then i finally realised tht bloggin isint a bad option to write abt opnions and abt general stuff.......yet again i find it very childish and kiddish to cry when my diary was almost gone...only very few pages survived the blow.....he he he...yet again i started writing it n even now once in a while i keep writing my deepest thoughts n feelings in it......coz Diary is one great frend who wud never question why u did it...wat made u feel or how cud u do it?....it jus listens n listens n listens......

One amazin reason why i started writing diary was to let out my grudge n anger on ppl.......whenever i was blown out of anger on someone....i used to go n write it in my diary n titti titti pette danni...diary lo vallani......n in a few mins after writing....my anger wud fly away......i wud be smiling fooslishly as to why did i have to be so angry n stuff.......n then im quite normal n even go back n talk to them.....splly my dad.....when we had difference of opinions...i used to defend myslef in my diary n then feel happy......n i always believed this wud save lotsa pain n struggle....pakkana valla moha meeda koopam lo unnappudu enno anaalanipistundi......kaani it really spoils the whole realtion atleast for a while n wat is said cant be erased.......even after apologies....so ila cheste both sides happy ani naaa feeling le.....so ala ala diray rastoo one fine day...I started Bloggin.......

I dunno if it made ne diff to u ppl to read this doc....But im lot happier now.....N who cares if u don like this blog....This is my blog n i liked it...Anthey!!!