A Love Story

Once upon a time there lived a girl n a guy.They had their own short love story.Cant write abt the whole story now.But wanted to tel wat i know abt them n her in particular n wanted to show my support to her.For the full story refer a blog written by harika for them at http://k-harika.blogspot.com.

Now my version of story.I knew they really loved each other.She was my close frend.He wasnt.Got to know him thru her in a while.Nice guy.I always thought both of them wud be very happy with each other.N the whole idea of break ups sent shivers down my spine.How can ppl take it? How wud they handle it? How can one give up on a person they really wanted to share their whole life with? But like its said.Its true.U have to break up when things get out of hand.But my whole idea of love n realtionships is different.If u like a guy think ahead.U cant go ahead jus thinkin i like this guy n this mite be love.Know ur priorities n ur parents priorities too if they matter to u.Can u get them to a decent level with the guy are abt to go ahead with.N then go ahead.U mite feel its not true love or real love if its involving so much of future thoughts n settlement details.But i wud say, if ur really sure tht this is the guy, the one with whom u want to spend the rest of ur life with, u wud very well think ahead bfr getting into a realtionship with him.I personally believe this wud save any couple from a lot of struggle n pain later on.N jus getting into a relationship knowing tht ur in love n taking up a painful break up later on doesnt work.Someimes even when ur totally sure abt the relationship n its future,things mite not go as u have planned.Then wat abt situation where u havent planned or even given a thought.Ppl are afraid to break up.Instead they wud prefer not to see and accept reality n finally end up in pain.N thankfully the recent frend of mine doesnt have a BF who is blaming her now.but wats the use.All is said n done.I jus hope they wud be fine n someday in life feel tht it was gud tht they broke up.N to al those who thought loving is the only thing u have to do to make things work,im very sorry.Its not just tht.U have grow as an individual n if u cant love urself even after bein in love,its better u give it up.Jus tellin my opinion.No pun intended.Watever it is.Life must go on n time wil heal things.Lots of love to the sweet frend of mine who had the guts to listen to her mind n not her heart.And plz dont be selfish in love i.e being with the person even when u know this wudnt work.Ur jus deceiving urslef if u definitely know the other person wudnt be happy with u n stil go ahead with it just coz u cant leave him.I know sometimes this strategy works very well.Coz time heals n u feel better.But for things ur very sure of not changing n not becoming better,U better accept them the way they are rather than crib abt it.Ok may be im being highy opinated.But this is al for now.

Why did i start Bloggin??

Go thru this:
2nd jan,Sunday,2005:
This is the worst thing that ever happened to me.my whole diary got deleted.that too in a mysterious way.i dint expect this to happen at all.that too in the startin of the new year.my sister says she dint do it.then who did it.my brother came the other day to check somethin.may be he opened.but why will they try to delete my diary?by mistake it got deleted.some one opened my diary on purpose n when they were tryin to read it,they accidentally pressed somethin that deleted most of the document.Not almost, it deleted everythin.

I started writin diary on sep 4th 2003 n have been writin since then.suddenly now the whole year’s memories r wiped off,that too in a single go.I just hate this.i poured so many of my emotions into it n now everythin dissappeared.My year started very very badly.Is this an indication that my whole year will be bad n very very depressin.or in a positive sense,its an indication to start a new year wipin out the old memories.But I m in no mood to take it in a positive sense.I havin been cryin for the past half an hour.I always regarded my diary as my best friend.now its no more there.I poured out all my emotions in it.In a way its not lifeless for me.its my best best frend n now,i feel like one of my closest frend died.why did this happen with me?why mee?I just hope this is the only bad thing in store for me in this year.I still hope my whole document returns back.But I know that its not at all possible.This is very very unfair god.After inter I never asked u for anythin.But now I wanna ask u for just one thing.Please bring my whole diary back.Pleaseeee.Leave it.I m too depressed ryt now.My diary where I cherished all my sweet memories is now all gone.Me leaving.Bye.

thts in short wat happened when i tried openin my diary(in my comp) to write abt the new yr celebrations on jan2,2005.....n i never bothered to have an archive or back up file for it....."jab kuch bura hota hai toh nothin can stop it from happenein"......may be the back up wud have been deleted as well......n it was somethin very emotional for me......only ppl who write diary regularly can know wat im talking abt......many ppl suggested tht i shift to blogs then.....but i wudnt have poured out al my emotions thr....so kept postponin it....then i finally realised tht bloggin isint a bad option to write abt opnions and abt general stuff.......yet again i find it very childish and kiddish to cry when my diary was almost gone...only very few pages survived the blow.....he he he...yet again i started writing it n even now once in a while i keep writing my deepest thoughts n feelings in it......coz Diary is one great frend who wud never question why u did it...wat made u feel or how cud u do it?....it jus listens n listens n listens......

One amazin reason why i started writing diary was to let out my grudge n anger on ppl.......whenever i was blown out of anger on someone....i used to go n write it in my diary n titti titti pette danni...diary lo vallani......n in a few mins after writing....my anger wud fly away......i wud be smiling fooslishly as to why did i have to be so angry n stuff.......n then im quite normal n even go back n talk to them.....splly my dad.....when we had difference of opinions...i used to defend myslef in my diary n then feel happy......n i always believed this wud save lotsa pain n struggle....pakkana valla moha meeda koopam lo unnappudu enno anaalanipistundi......kaani it really spoils the whole realtion atleast for a while n wat is said cant be erased.......even after apologies....so ila cheste both sides happy ani naaa feeling le.....so ala ala diray rastoo one fine day...I started Bloggin.......

I dunno if it made ne diff to u ppl to read this doc....But im lot happier now.....N who cares if u don like this blog....This is my blog n i liked it...Anthey!!!

Love-Wat Exactly is it???!!!

Love Love Love!!! i have heard enuf abt wat love is from every second person i knew......but today here i wud wanna put forth Love as perceived by me when i look at few frends of mine........
Startin from school......

Sravanthi:Mutual respect and trust on each other and a strict No-No for any intimate relationships until marriage.......If its true it waits patiently........

Pavani:Love is being urself......lettin out ur happiness sadness anger and sharing it with a spl person in this world.......n trust in her sense was to believe him completely.......

Sudeepthi:Love is not always abt happiness.......Love is Sacrifice......n marriage doesnt have to be the end of any successful love affair.......

Archana:Love is al abt loving a Reddy Guy :).......hope she wud forgive me for writing it this way........yet she believes family is equally imp to completely love ur patner........

Anirudh:Love is a pleasant and extraordinary feeling which doesnt happen to al n sundry.......Its great to fall in love unless the girl is a "burkhi"wali.......(this is for him n not generalised).........

Vamsi:Love is Shit......pure shit......n if u ask him more al he can say is "love is al abt getting as intimate as u can with her.......its jus a way of letting out ur energy".

Raju:Love is not goin against ur parents......atleast for him....he wudnt fall in love anyday coz his family wudnt spare him if he did..........

Rajsekhar:Love happens in movies n for ppl like him it really doesnt work out.......n he hasnt told abt a single crush which he ever cherished.....

Somnath:Love is al abt dating n goin out with girls......shudnt think too deep abt its effects......

Now time for my really close college frenz........

Shruthi:Love is in the air....nature n i love being loved by al......n love can be in any form between anyone.....a hard core follower of it......love u shruthi.....;).......

Smitha:Love is al abt strong crushes n not neglecting ur family's preferences when u like or have a strong crush on someone........

Priyanka:Love is not breaking ur parents heart.....neither is it breaking ur heart......but if u have a war between these two.......i like to see my parents happy rather than myslef coz they know wats best for me........

Harika:Love is frendship......Two frends can make great lovers.......n oh yeah she believes marriage isint the end of love....only Death.....harika baga cheppanaaa;)......

Shipra:Love is abt loving the one person in ur life whom u trust believe and can get along with.........be it loving ur husband after marriage or loving ur BF bfr marriage.....

Now Love according to one Really Spl Frend of mine who wudnt want to be named........

"Love is abt being exactly urself n not having to say sorry anyday.......Love is bein able to forgive n forget.......Love is to see ur sweetheart in other women if she isint arnd;)......i hope ppl are seeing......:)

Last but not the least how I perceive Love........
Love is al abt bein happy......being happier n bein happiest.....knowin more n more each day abt ur only one.....Love is abt surprises......the only thing tht shud matter is....."when ur happy with him are u sure it wud surpass al those low moments in ur life and remain ever cherished"....n yeah......Love is definitely not somethin tht we see in movies......few of them always an exception tho.......

This is Life

Life is like this.......
i went to my cousin's marriage yesterday.......A girl cousin's marriage.......the girl cousin who is jus older to me.......al these things are much imp than the marriage to me.......clad in flowing zardosi sarees......me n my sis looked arnd for a dark corner n sat down....we dint want to be in ppl's sight.......but invariably......my atta(dad's sister) calls out to me......i see few ladies lil away from me.......i can visualise 'Start camera....Lights....Action' in my mind now...... n here comes the Action.......I put on the most Plastic n Elastic smile on my face n walk towards them......these auntie ladies ask me my name n wat im studyin.....well it doesnt end here.....their next question wud be"bagaa chaduvutavaa nuvvu?"(do u study well?)......."oh no...not really...im tryin my level best to flunk in al the subjects this sem n repeat al over again".......how much i wish i cud reply back like this......n then my atta takes over....."chala buddimanturaalu(well behaved)......chalaa baga chaduvutundi(studies well).......infosys lo job vachhesindi(she has a job at infy).......inka sambhandhaalu vetukamani valla nannaki cheppesaanu(i told her dad to serach matches for her).....meeru kooda teliste cheppandi(tell me if u know some matches)".....oh my god..it mite sound cliche but it happens...it happens al the time n this time much more vigorously coz im carryin the "Im Next in Line" tag now.........n the worst part of it bein tht we have to jus keep goin arnd to be in ppl sight......such a hell it is.....If u are thinkin tht this is the end of it....No its certainly not.......my own relatives now turn up to me sayin"aaaaa inka next nuvve ne....nee pelli ki kooda ilage chestam(ur the next one to get married...we will be doin al this for ur marrige too)"........well nobody here is bothered abt wat i want.......tho girls like me have been bold enuf to tell wat they want....it really doesnt make a diff to them......such a sick system it is......i respect the concern my ppl have for me...but they jus want girls like me to get married so soon....like girls are born n do graduation jus to get married......n i really dunno if its jus happiness tht they get out of it.......nevertheless.....I got used to it n not complainin abt it ne more......whenever i go to marriages......all i have to do is......"Start camera....Lights.......Action"

My First Post!!!!

Oh my god.....i always wondered if i cud ever start bloggin even tho i loved it coz im too lazy to do it......finally i knew i had to start with it someday n why not today.....coz today is a holy(holi) day!!!.......so this is al i have for my first blog.......more to come very soon.....